My Journal!

June 28, 2020
I've been doing surprisingly well! I finished all the owed art I had just in time for Art Fight, got into Lemon Demon via his Spirit Phone album, my parents went on vacation for the weekend so it's overall been peaceful here? It's been really nice. I'm sure my mood won't persist-- they're coming home today-- but it was nice while it lasted. I've also been adding pages to the site! And I beat the game Celeste. ^^ If you'd like to see some fanart I did recently, you can click these.

June 14, 2020
I don't have a good idea how I want to start this one to be honest, I've been sleeping a lot as usual and a couple days back I woke up at 9pm. That's life though ^^;. I've just been busy... I've really been wanting to game and just Haven't. I could be doing that instead of writing this but... *shrugs* I wanted to update this. It's said on my updates, but I got help from Gray with site coding! And it's such a relief because it's such a hassle having to update every page's sidebars, and now I don't have to think of a new thing to put on the other columns over there to replace site updates either! -->
Alright I'm gonna go now. Don't have much else to say.

June 11, 2020
Well, I guess later never came haha. I've been really busy and also tired so I haven't typed anything new until now. I have a lot to talk about though! So I'll get into it.

I bought the Itch.io Bundle for Racial Justice and Equality (For sale through June 15 2020), and there's so much cool stuff in it! If you play games and haven't donated to get access, I don't even know what you're doing. It's a $5 minimum to donate and you get enough games to last you years lol. I found over 100 that interested me at a glance, plus it's going to a good cause! Right now I'm playing 2064: Read Only Memories and I highly recommend it for people who liked games like VA-11 HALL-A, and people who like lots of story and point and clicks. It's cyberpunk style so! If you enjoy that aesthetic it's an absolute joy to play this game even if only for the visuals.

I've also gotten into a new musical group, Tally Hall. They've been on hiatus since 2012 (of course they have ^^;) but their two albums absolutely rock. It's funny, sometimes unsettling music that is really good especially if you like rock and stuff like that, and stuff with synths. It definitely plays into the 'if you listen closely the lyrics are lowkey disturbing' type but it's generally comedic enough to not be viewed as creepy. See: Two Wuv, which is a total banger but the lyrics are... questionable. LOL.

June 3, 2020
I've been trying to learn how to use CSS for this site-- no dice. I dont know what I want to put over there --> because it's a hassle editing every single webpage every time there's a new update, but I'd like to have something substantial there still. I've been sleeping ridiculous amounts (I woke up at 6 odd PM today) and I haven't been getting anything done but I just can't be bothered to. I don't sleep at night, but I'm still tired when I'm awake. More later.

June 1, 2020
I've cleared my previous entries because I don't like how forced they felt. I like the less formatted style more because it's easier for me to write about whatever is actually on my mind without feeling stuck in a box where I can only talk about certain things. That said, I probably still won't be updating this daily. I just don't have the focus to look at code for longer periods and write every day!

I've been really down and out lately because of all the stuff happening with the police and all that. It's so anxiety inducing for everyone I feel like, I just don't want more people to get hurt. I don't have a good place I can vent about it without actually having to discuss politics, or feel like I have to, so I'll do it here.

I'm really hoping June turns out being ok, but is it really realistic to hope for it at this point lol? I'm almost 19 (July 6), I graduated a year ago but it doesn't feel like any time has passed at all. Everything just got worse lol. My sense of time is already nonexistent, everything's just gotten so fast these past couple years so it's like "it was just 2018 though", or at least that's the vibe.

I haven't been talking to much of anyone consistently, I keep embarrassing myself when I try lol and it's just like wow I'm in hell! I'm gonna make it a point to not talk about specific people too much here because. *gestures around* It's public, but yeah I'm no good at talking. It's big "why are people friends with me?" hours and it sucks but whatcha gonna do. Anyways I'm done typing for now.